Life ended up breaking me, leaving me breathless and bare.
I started this space when my son Ryan was six months old and as a new parent, I was craving something to call my own. I created Baby Boy Bakery and began writing down the recipes I was making in my tiny apartment while my baby boy watched me happily from his highchair. As I recounted our simple life happenings, my son and I grew up together in front of a beautiful community of friends who came to visit us here in this space daily. After three years of sharing our life, our food and our hearts with everyone, life indeed took a turn for the unbearable. Life ended up breaking me, leaving me breathless and bare.
Life took another turn. But this time ripped open the possibility of feeling happy again.
I lost my son when he was three and half years old and when he passed away, it left me with a burning pain that I still feel today. This online space that my son and I created together played a large part in putting me back together again. Our community grew tenfold as strangers graced us with love and support. In turn, I decided to continue writing in this space. I continued to share my life, my food, my broken heart with everyone. Over time I began to rebuild myself into a stronger version of me and I shared it all here for everyone to see. Life as it does, took another turn. But this time it ripped open the possibility of feeling happy again. I just has to get up and reach for it.
Life, it is like waves crashing into you constantly. Some waves feel warm & lift you up to the sky. Some waves hit hard & pull you underwater making things dark as you fight to breath. Though after either type of wave comes relief. It is within that relief where slivers of magic live.
I find myself searching for those sweet moments of magical relief in between the highs & lows of my life.
Soon I welcomed my second child, my daughter Mila. Mila arrived singing and surprised us all with her fierce red hair just like her big brother’s. This space here online continued strong as I still shared recipes while inviting everyone inside my home to see just how messy and beautiful life can be. Life is like waves crashing into you constantly. Some waves feel warm and lift you up towards the sky. Some waves hit hard and pull you underwater making things dark as you fight to breath. Though after either type of wave comes relief. It is within that relief where slivers of magic live. I find myself searching for those sweet moments of magical relief in between the highs and lows of my life. It is in this space here that I share my sweet relief with you. I’m also known to share my highs and lows with you too. Four years after Mila was born, I had another beautiful daughter, Maya. Sweet Maya, she completes us.
Now, with three children I find myself still craving something to call my own. It is indeed this space here, it is mine and I genuinely love it. I crave it and that is why I am still here.
I’ve added my name, Jacqui Saldaña, to make it more my own now. It has been ten full years that I’ve been writing and sharing my heart here online. I thank you for being here. Even if you are just meeting me for the first time. Please, get comfy in my home and allow me to show you simple recipes as I share the ins and outs of my life.
